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It was remembered: "During quarrels and scandals, Nina is screaming, she is blurting out the irreparable" (Трифонов Юрий. 'Из дневников и рабочих тетрадей' (Составитель - Ольга Трифонова)) [Trifonov Yu. "From diaries and workbooks" (The compiler (composer) - Olga Trifonova)].

What - it means - "irreparable"?

In Trifonov's story "Games at twilight" there are lines: "Once I saw how the black car has stopped near the house on the third line ... and Anchik has jumped out of the car. She has taken off shoes and, screaming, has begun to clapping bare feet to a gate. After her the person in a black hat has got out. He has suddenly stopped directly in a puddle, has taken off a hat and stood for a few seconds in strange thoughtfulness, looking to the earth, having held up the bald head to a rain.

Anchik was tall, slender, with a wasp waist, with jet-black hair and with big eyes, black and deep as night".

Reading this fragment, I have thought that, maybe, or Lavrentiy Beria has appeared near Yu. Trifonov, or Yu. Trifonov has appeared near L. Beria.

I read also other works, among them - about Yu. Trifonov.

The triangle appears. Allegedly the beloved woman of Yu. Trifonova was intimate with L. Beria.

And, it seems, Yu.V. Trifonov knew about it. (There is a book where the situation is described more definitely, more specifically. The author of this essay has studied such book in version of the electronic copy; so I decided to refrain from direct citing: it is impossible to exclude any inaccuracies during the scanning, recognition, etc. But the thought - "she was", "he knew" - is expressed absolutely distinctly).

Perhaps, "she was". Perhaps, "he knew". I can believe.

Again the works by Yuri Trifonov. I see: "all this there were errors of the feelings, but not errors of costing" (Ю. Трифонов 'Долгое прощание') [Yuri Trifonov's "the Long goodbye"].

The modern man is functioning by the modern modality. "Is not it calculation?" "And if not the calculation, - then did not he show weakness, did not fall morally? Face in down?"

2. "Contrary to all reason, understanding, experience of life, self-esteem, pride"

The story by M. Gorky "Demonstrative show" ('Вывод') was remembered. About collective, public and shameful punishment of the woman, which was accused of infidelity. Still young Alexei Peshkov almost has no private life, but he already as Don Quixote - rushes in battle for the woman. He tried to protect. And he have suffered. Was revived with great difficulty.

Then Maria Ignatievna Zakrevskaya was remembered, she - is a little later - Baroness Budberg, she "the iron woman". M. Gorky's apartment. Postrevolutionary hungry, cold, dangerous time. Maria Zakrevskaya lives in M. Gorky's apartment, has entered into his family. She is in almost absolute dependence from M. Gorky.

Herbert Wells's arrival. Herbert Wells stops in M. Gorky's apartment. "All knew that Moura hasn't banished him ..." (Nina Berberova "Zheleznaia Zhenshchina" ("Moura: The Dangerous Life of the Baroness Budberg")).

"Relatives called her "Moura", and Maxim Gorky named her "the iron woman". For many years she was in close relations with Gorky, and then with Herbert Wells" (Wikipedia (Russian). Article "Будберг, Мария Игнатьевна").

Whether Gorky loved Maria Zakrevskaya? Probably, yes.

Otherwise, he would not have risked living with her in his apartment (affairs came to an executing of a search with reference to her connection with Robert Bruce Lockhart). Gorky would not have gone to Lenin with requests for help.

Gorky attempted to pull her out off prison, when she had unsuccessfully tried to cross the border on the ice of the Gulf of Finland. He dedicated Maria Zakrevskaya one of his works (the novel "The Life of Klim Samgin").

He loved, forgave, was loyal. Suffered, loved ...

"Why can you not unite with a woman to who is invincibly attracting you? He runs to the telephone and seeks a meeting contrary to all reason, understanding, experience of life, self-esteem, pride (Yu. Trifonov, 'Время и место' ("Time and place ")).

The love, apparently, was present at the family life of both M. Gorky, and Yu. Trifonov.

But in addition to it, they are - as outstanding people - could estimate happening to them as test and/or the message, signal (About the importance of "signs" sets out arguments in my book "The Textbook on the success of the writer. Heinrich Schliemann, Nikolai Gogol, Maxim Gorky and their lessons").

For some reason Yu. Trifonov, Yu. Trifonov being in love, Yu. Trifonov, which is continuing to live with a (possibly) unfaithful woman, - is closer to me.

Closer - than the hypothetical Yu. Trifonov, which learned about (possible) infidelity of the beloved woman and decided to keep the relations with her ("Attracts invincibly"),

but then learned that "the third" is L. Beria,

weighed L. Beria on internal scales and understood that the level of "negativity" of L. Beria is such, that he (Yu. Trifonov) won't keep the relations with the beloved woman.

It would be not the great writer Yu. Trifonov, but absolutely other person.

The logic is sometimes not peculiar to the person in love.

3. "I was organising for him dinner with children"

A details which possess special energy are meeting in biographic materials.

We can remember behavior of Tatyana Aleksandrovna Slovatinskaya, Trifonov's grandmother on mother's side.

Her behavior after arrests the son-in-law Valentin (father Yu. Trifonov), the daughter Tatyana (Yu. Trifonov's mother), the son Pavel.

The situation reminded a work of a huge pressing-mechanism, which was attempting to destroy family.

But the person (T.A. Slovatinskaya) didn't agreed with destroying of family. And the family was stored.

Then I read, that T.A. Slovatinskaya in 1912 provided the opportunity to stay in her apartment for a person hiding from the tsar's authorities.

He was lonely and homeless man. He was born in the Caucasus region.

She was organising for him dinner with children. She was giving necessary instructions to servant-woman (Yu. Trifonov 'Отблеск костра' ("A fire reflection")).

I trust in this detail ("I was organising for him dinner with children. I was giving necessary instructions to servant-woman").

She, Tatyana Slovatinskaya, of course, both the figure (slightly) historical, and secretary, and so on. But in her there is a quality: careness. The woman's careness of children, grandsons, of family, of those who in family.