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Enough of endless, useless searches!

Enough of pain for the heart

And throw away that fucked regard!

Enough of quirks, my buggy mind,

The one I want I'll never find!

Her image died so long ago...

I cannot find her in the Row!

They are all busy, or have man,

This but repeats for now and then,

They disappeared all in mist

And left me with my tears to feast.

I've talked them all, I've seen a lot,

I've left my hopes for now to rot

And only pain I've got,

But chosen one I've found not...

30.01.2008

Stop crying now, there is no one

To help you, man, they all but gone,

They disappeared with the wind,

Theirs empathy you shall not find.

You see it now? You’re left alone,

Your so-called 'friends' were quickly gone,

And so-called 'love' abandoned you,

Devoted ones ... they are so few.

Strong-willed men ... do they exist?

There is but one, the very least.

You know this one - this one is you,

You wanted more? No, they are few.

You wanted friend? Accept your rival.

You wanted sun? Yours day is nival.

You wanted help? You'll get no one.

Accept, that, man - you'll find it fun.

You hoped for trust? You'll find suspicion.

Your eyes are clear? They'll dim your vision.

You struggled for freedom? You are bound

And understanding won't be found.

No one cares of the others

No one sees us, men, as brothers,

No one's willing to escape

Bonds of hatred, minds of slave.

You'll find it fun one lonely day

To see those heartless as live's prey,

Theirs shadows dim the light of sun

For their hearts are in the run.

No love - but a despair, you'll learn one day - that's fair,

It must be diamond-rare for no one truly care...

10.07.2007

I see myself between the two -

But one is false, and one is true,

For one is night and one is day

No matter what the others say.

The first is silent, first is cold,

One needs to be both hot and bold

To dare melt that icy heart.

Will you succeed? Go try it, but...

The second is both warm and kind,

It may be not so sharp in mind,

It may be not so swift in tongue -

But it had never-ever stung.

The first is like secular lioness -

It is the grace, it is the finesse,

It is the beautiful snowflake ...

But what one's hands with it will make?

The second's like domestic cat -

To see you home she's always glad,

And she will rub about knees

To make you happy and to please.

The first is the unwilling one

To share moon, to share sun,

To share failure and success -

It's not accustomed to stress.

The second will go hand-in-hand

By any road, through any land,

In any way you just have sighted -

And in that way you'll be united.

The first will look but with contempt

If you have riches that not tempt,

If you first offer own love -

Like useful slave you'll always bow.

The second will ask for but love

That's warm as sun, and fly as dove,

Will look at you with gleaming glance -

And that's the main dif-fe-rence.

23.02.2008

The Modern One, I was a fool,

The Heartless One, I was your tool,

The Sunless One, I could be light ...

I am yet again alone in night.

You are the child of this age,

I am an ancient, ageless sage,

You are the youth in ages gold,

I am immortal, very old.

Behind my steps - the thousand lives,

Behind success - the thousand tries,

Behind my wings - the thousand dreams ...

I have redeemed own sins.

I am a star in darkest night

And for myself I'm own guide,

You are reflection, shining deep,

You have no wings, you like to creep,

You like to feed on own lacks -

The child, full of epoch's bracks,

I would prefer to leave you, rather,

There is no fate for us together.

You are the victim of your age,

But time will break this golden cage,

And time will teach you how to play

With love of other, who’s your prey.

With time you'll die in mind of mine,

The time will help me not to pine,

The time will be life's own sage,

For I was born in the wrong age.

So yet again I am behind,

I am victim of my own mind,

The time will help my heart unfreeze.

There is no one.

... Or is there is?

14.06.2009

All I feel now is the pain,

All my hopes were but in vain,

And there is no one to blame...

Damn it, have I gone insane?!

Will this be all just the same,

Am I but a soul lame,